If you read these posts regularly, you might know that I sometimes use this blog to reflect on topics that bother me. It helps me to write my thoughts down, so I can get a better grasp on them. This resulted on prior post that were, to put it mildly, pretty cringe. As I've said before, I'm fine with this, as those old posts simply document my journey towards becoming more aligned with myself.
It has been my process since I started this page, that the comic always comes first. I don't draw a comic to illustrate my writing, the writing is added on to the comic. Usually, I don't know what I will write about until the comic is completely done. While the blog post is sometimes completely unrelated to the comic, the comic often serves as an inspiration. And this comic definitely inspires me to write about a topic that I would honestly love to get more clarity on.
The problem is that I can't. I've started multiple times, but I can't find the courage. There's just things that I don't want to tell the entire internet about. I probably could, it's nothing dangerous or illegal, it's probably not even that embarrassing. All my friends know (at least to the degree that I know myself), I just don't feel comfortable writing about it here. That's a real bummer, as I could have really used the clarity that composing these posts gives me.
I know what you're thinking. "Why don't you just write it down without posting it?" It doesn't work like that. If I write it on some notepad, just for myself, I don't feel like there's any point to it. I don't feel the need to pour my heart and soul into it, like I usually do with these posts. And it's precisely this motivation that drives me to squeeze words out of my brain that I'm sometimes as much surprised to read as you are.
